Filed under: Behind the screen..., craps ..., uuphh yeh life!!! — chapters @ 1:20 PM
I was thinking that i had decided, but now I think, I could not decide then. I need to decide again as I have got one more chance… one more option to go for…
Let’s see when I will be able to make a final decision!!!
Filed under: Behind the screen..., Essays, Family..., uuphh yeh life!!! — chapters @ 3:29 PM
Imagine, a 50 years old lady, widow, with the memories of a dead son. That’s the lady who is working in my new flat. I call her Maasi. I did not know about her son. I had assumed that she had a family back at her home and she must be coming here after her daily house hold works. I had imagined a son; who would be working somewhere, a daughter-in-law; who would be quarrelling with Maasi for one reason or other, a grand-son; who would love Maasi more than his own mother, and would be crying when Maasi left for work. That’s a usual scene in an Indian family staying in a slum. But how wrong I was!! i missed out that life can be more ruthless sometimes. When Bou, asked Maasi about her family, then only, I came to know about it.
And I thought that I was the person who was worst bitten by life, with a job where I get rank 3 even after working day and night but still getting a decent salary to meet all my requirements, a place which I hate but still staying there as it is nearer to my home town, parents whom I miss very much but they stay just 440 KM away from this place and I can go to see them every other weekend, a loving brother, a sweet bahbhi who stay abroad but will come anytime I need them, a 1 year old cute niece whom I had seen only twice but will do anything to keep her happy.
Now think about Maasi’s life; so empty, so lonely…I don’t have words to explain, I don’t have guts even to imagine her life. And there she is living with the guts to face all these and she has succeeded. She doesn’t beg… she works and lives on whatever she earns. Everybody says to face THE LIFE. But how many actually FACED it??? Life is not easy for everybody. There are tensions, problems in every house you would pick. I felt, that I am lucky. If you don’t feel the same way, then stand where Maasi is standing now and you would know. I laughed at those mails which said “Life is beautiful”, but today I can say that life is indeed beautiful. It is you who does not appreciate your life. You never know what will happen in the next moment!! You are lucky that you have your family. And have a heart for all those people who are not so lucky. Grab everything life throws at you. Because who knows, what’s there in the future??
I wish I could have helped Maasi in some way, but those are beyond my capabilities. I can not make her feel the same way she would have felt, if her family were with her… I can only pray that May all her future days would be smoother…
Filed under: Behind the screen..., craps ..., uuphh yeh life!!! — chapters @ 2:01 PM
But, today’s incident made me to write this piece.
Appraisal time… everyone in my team got either 1 or 2 rank … where as I got rank 3. I was so happy that finally I shifted to a new flat and I was loving that flat very much; But today this rank came out and I am again so much depressed. And you know what??? I am chatting with a guy who is so frustooo… I hate myself for this!!
