September 24, 2008

Out of “Words”…

Filed under: Essays — chapters @ 11:55 AM

They are flying everywhere… roaming here and there. They disturb me when I am doing something which can be called as “work”. They are so much irritating.  They keep on buzzing about every this and that. When I look at something, they start analyzing that and then jumping up and down restlessly. Sometimes, they are in different colors… red, blue, green, orange, purple… and some other times they are pure black …

But, the moment I sit down and try to catch them, they just vanish with a ‘pop’ … They are there, happily zooming in-n-out until and unless I pay any attention to them. When I look at them and start to rearrange them & form something meaningful out of them, they play hide n seek with me.

This is happening with me from some couple of weeks. I don’t know what to do and how to tame them!!!

Getting confused??? Okay… I am talking about the “Words“… I have so much to write about, but when I start to write, words betray me. They just dont flow freely from my mind as they used to. Still, while I am away from the computer, they just peep behind my mind and force me to run behind them. But I am not able to catch them. How am I going to make my blog live without my thoughts getting converted to words, and then sentences and paragraphs???

Please God, save me from this dilemma… Please ask those words to come out of their hibernation and feel free. I am not going to hurt them. I just need them to sit as I arrange and I promise I will never curse them. I will even not complain about their constant buzz in my head, if only they will co-operate me while writing and keeping this blog alive…

September 19, 2008

A mail…

Filed under: Behind the screen..., I~) — chapters @ 2:31 PM

The day before yesterday, after lunch, we (me, I~), and 2 other colleagues from our office) were just having a chat. when everybody was asked to point out 5 good things and 2 bad things about his/her spouse/ would be spouse. When my turn came, I was not very much sure what to say… somehow managed. But I~) spoke really good… he, not only pointed out some good things about me, but he also pointed out the bad things about me which only I knew…

After coming back to office, I found a mail from I~) with detailed list of all the good-bad nature that I have. So it was time for me to sit down and think… think and analyse, all those things which I should have told about I~), but I did not. I wrote a mail staing everything that I could have gathered by thinking about him and sent to him.

Here I am posting the contents of the same mail… But just the good points… Bad points…. ummm… let them be within just him and I. ;-)

  Hi,

                  I know , whatever I am going to write, you will just use each and every single word for torturing ( I don’t mean that actually… ;-) ) me in the future… but still, I should write everything that I feel about you… good; bad; not so good; not so bad… Before writing… I mean, before blurting out everything, let me confess that, I love you for whatever you are… I know you will repeat the same sentence to me with bold and italic letters within quotes whenever you will feel like. 

                 Without making you bore anymore, let me start

 The qualities in you that I admire… 

  • strong personality –> can impress anybody with the persona you possess.
  • Very friendlier –> can befriend anybody, randomly chosen from a group of fellows from each and every background.
  • a very good speaker
  • a mind blowing motivator –> and who can experience it better than me!!!
  • very hardworking –> within these few months, I have seen you working each minute you are awake to get your goal… and I know, your hard work will surely make you to touch the golden glory very soon.  :)
  •  very very very confident –> the thing that I lack in myself…  :P
  • very much plan oriented –> no comments on that  :)
  •  good taste of clothes and accessories :)
  • a person having a very good friend circle and very good family values apart from a very good family itself :)
  • very determined
  • very calculative
  • very understanding and caring
  • much more mature than me… :)
  • very calm … even in crisis situations
  • I can depend on you completely
  • romantic (sometimes …;-) )
  • pamper me like anything :)
  • love me more than I love you ( yes… here I confess…sigh… :) )
  • you appreciate everything I cook (let me see how much time this can continue :P )
  • dream a lot… as I used to … ( I don’t day dream that much anymore, but I love to hear you dreams and love the thing that I am a part of all your dreams :) )
  • a good listener (sometimes you don’t listen to anything I say and just keep on staring at me… and sometimes to some other girls :P )
  • it does not matter, how much angry I am with you or with other people, you make me smile within just a couple of seconds :)
  • you understand and respect my feelings
  • you don’t lie to me … (or may be, I have never caught you !!! is it so???)

 Well, do not think that the list ends here… it goes on…it’s just that, I need some more time to fill up more… say about this life time, because I need to spend each and every day with you for the whole life to discover each and every quality that I can fall in love with :)