Filed under: Behind the screen..., Family... — chapters @ 11:35 AM
Today my father is getting retired from his job…. i.e. today is his last day at the office. There is a farewell party organized for him. I wish I were at home now. But anyways, I am leaving for home today in the night and tomorrow we are going to Puri… yay!!!!
I love sea beaches and apart from that it has been a long time since I had last visited Puri Jagannath Temple. Temples have always made me feel the peace within, whether it is the Puri temple or the small temple near to my home. I try to go to temple every time I go home. But going to Puri is all total a different experience. For us (Oriyas), Lord Jagannath is like kuldevta. Tomorrow is also saraswati puja and for that, I think Puri will be crowded. I hate crowded places. But I cannot deny to go to Puri as we believe that going to a devine place is not in your hands. When the Devine Himself calls you, you should not ignore it. You never know when will be the next time He will call you.
So, here I am, ready for the trip. I have come to office with my back pack so that I will leave for the station directly from the office.
As I said, today is my father’s last day at the office. So he is going to a new phase of his life… the phase of “no-official-work”. Normally, my father is not a religious guy. Well he is not an atheist, but he is not a regualr temple goer. But this time he gave the inivitation to go. May be he preparing for the next phase of his life… Good for me and Bou.
Bou and me are going to have a good time in Puri 
Filed under: I~) — chapters @ 1:37 PM
I~) is going for his B School GD/PI. He will be out of the town for most of the weeks in February. It was until yesterday, when I realized that how much I am going to miss him. He always keeps on telling me that I need to be little organized so that I don’t face any problem when he leaves for 2 complete years for his higher studies. But I never thought that it would be tough for me. I thought, I can handle. Little did I know that, it can be so miserable. He has not left till now. He will be just going for his interviews and then he will come back. If he can convert any of the calls (Which I am very sure he will) then he will be going…
I realized, in just one year, he has created a place in my heart and life which cannot be occupied by any other person. He has become a part my very own life. I never imagined that my life would cling to someone like this. But here I am… already imagining all those horrible time when he won’t be around here. I hope I can show him my brave face while he leaves. I don’t want him to leave with a heavy heart. He is already very tensed about me… I cannot remember the places, the roads. Whenever he is with me, I pay the least interest on remembering the roads as I know, even if it is a labyrinth, then also I~) will take us out without any problem…
Last Sunday, we had a picnic of few friends. It was decided that I~) will come to pick me up from our usual meeting point… the place where I can go alone and after that I never paid any attention to where we are going as I~) always stays with me. As I left my place, I~) gave a call and informed me that he could not come to pick me up as he just woke up and it was already late and it would be better if I would go there directly instead of waiting for him. At first I was little bit nervous. But then, I did not have any other option. So I sticked to the instructions about the directions and buses/shuttles to be taken which I~) gave me over the phone and through out the journey I was constantly talking to him. Finally I found him waiting for me on the bus stand where I needed to get down. After all these, I came to know that he did this intentionally, so that I would be able to be on my own, that too comfortably, while on the road.
This is the picnic, after which I felt how dependent I have become. There are lots of small things which I cannot think that I can do without him. But I will have to manage. I am going to miss him so much… it is not only the dependency, but the moral support, the love, the small pranks, the scoldings, the “so-many-things-that-he-does”s…
I just hope that these 2 years just pass as soon as possible… And I~), I am going to miss you… 
Filed under: Behind the screen..., craps ..., uuphh yeh life!!! — chapters @ 8:34 PM
I realized few things…
- Whatever you do, how much you try, there will be still few people left who won’t be happy with you.
- If you try hard to make those few people happy, then gradually you lose your identity.
- If you try to get back to your own self, you will make some other people unhappy apart from the first few.
- Finally you lose your own identity with a group of angry people around you.
- There will always be some people who do not like the way you talk, the way you eat, the way you stand or the way you sit. You cannot make peace with them.
- There will be also some people who will, sometimes listen to your problems, sometimes listen just half of what you say, sometimes just ignore your every word, and then, they will blame you for your problems. That means, you lose interest in talking to them.
- Whenever you open your mouth to say something, you find 10 other people are also doing the same and rest of the people are interested in listening to those 10 people. You finally, lose interest in talking altogether.
- You always find few people who are enough boring to make you die. But still, you ARE MADE to work with them. Slowly you start not feeling anything about anybody… not even about yourself.
- In this process, you lose your senses and you feel asif you are becoming abnormal or asif you were born abnormal; it is just until today that you have never realized all these things…
