August 26, 2009

Nostalgia…

Filed under: Behind the screen..., Down the memory lane..., Family..., Friends..., uuphh yeh life!!! — chapters @ 1:37 PM

At sometimes, I want the power to roll back my life till the point when I was 10 yrs old. I accomplished many things since then, but at the same time, the list of lost things is also not very negligible. Sometimes, I sigh on those thoughts those come out of my buried memory and start taking a stroll.

In Bhubaneswar, we live in an official quarter, which my father’s office had provided. It was even before my birth that my parents and my brother moved into this quarter and since then it is our home. Well, within few more months we will be leaving this quarter and will move to our own house. But this quarter is the perfect home for me. I was born here and spent my life’s first 22/23 years. Whenever I close my eyes and think about my home, then the picture of this quarter comes into my mind. It is nothing more than a 2 BHK flat, but you can imagine a Govt quarter and its condition. Sometimes, when it rained heavily, the roof leaked, and the side walls were soaked with the rain water. When summer comes, it becomes almost unbearable to spent even a single day in that quarter as it becomes nothing less but a hot oven. But still I love it… it has my memories engraved in its walls. If you can just peel out just 2/3 layers of distemper, then you can see my pencil drawings on the drawing room walls. Someday, when I played teacher-student, I being the teacher with few imaginary students, then this wall became my black board. Then I spelt an Umbrella as “Umbrela” and drew few sketches which proved my lack of knowledge in that area. The walls were like that for few more years till my father’s office approved his plea for a re-paint to hide those crafts of mine. And I remember the day the quarter was -repainted and my father warned me to think atleast thrice before trying my drawing/english teaching skills again on any of the walls.

Then come to the first bedroom which is near the drawing room. There remains the foot-mark of my brother’s Oriya handwriting and first alphabets of his first, middle and last names in english. Well, my father was not very lucky when he tried to paint the house to get rid of those marvelous crafts of my brother. Layers and layers of paint also could not hide them, as my bro was intelligent enough not to use a pencil. He went for an iron nail to dig his marks on the wall, which became almost embedded there. He later confessed that he did this to mark his territory… err his room so that in future nobody captures that. And I forgot to mention that, he also wrote “Bapa” on the other bedroom wall and “Bou” on the kitchen’s wall. And when I grew up to write something, I could not make out why he had written only “bapa” and “Bou” on wall when we have so many relatives. So, I almost took it as my sole responsibility to finish the work he started. So I took a pencil and wrote everybody’s name (not real ones, but what I call them) on the wall one after another, in a line, with commas exactly at the places where they should be and marveled at my own capability.

The quarter we stay, is on the first floor, which also happens to be the top floor of the block. There are 4 houses in one block and 2 adjacent blocks are inter-connected by the terrace. There used to live 7 more families like us and together we were like a community.

The family that stayed just in front of our quarter, was a family of many ladies. I mean uncle had 3 daughters and 2 sons. His wife, elder son, and youngest daughter used to stay at their village. Uncle had almost adopted a lad from his village who stayed with him and his other 2 daughters in the quarter. Well the boy, S, was only 1 year younger to me and what I meant while saying almost adopted was that, he was not legally adopted, but he still lives with uncles family after all these years and he IS a member of it. S and I played together. I never had a younger sibling so S was a like a little brother to me whom I ordered, scolded and at the same time took care of.

But my play group was not complete without K, the girl who lived in the quarter that was the adjacent block to ours. Her quarter and S’s quarter were interconnected by the terrace. She was 2 years older to me and behaved as the mistress of our group. Sometimes, I admired her and sometimes I conspired against her with S and planned to boycott her from our group which never happened. 3 of us grew up together. Now, though I am still in touch with K, the same I cannot tell about S. I had last met him during December 2007. I still remember all those games we used to play. All of us used to study in the school which was just around 100 feet away from our blocks. So if the school’s last bell rang by 4 PM, then we were there on the terrace by 4.30 PM. We played “Bisha-Amruta”, “Lucha Kali”, “E pai- Se pai”, and numerous such games. Then came the days, when we started to have small terrace parties and the food was bought with the small amount of money we three could manage (as we did not have the custom of getting regular pocket money during those period and money was only provided when the child cried for buying something on his/her own and the amount was also very low… so low that if somebody got something which could be counted as Rupees they he/she was lucky). Then came the days when K and I started cooking on the terrace with a small kerosene stove. But the first feast we had was meant to be remembered forever. One day, when we got tired of playing, we wanted to do something new. So we thought of cooking. K brought a small kerosene lamp, which was nothing but a small glass bottle containing oil and the lead had a hole out of which a thick cotton string came out. The end of the string that was out of the bottle was point where it was lighted and the other end was immersed in the oil in the bottle. So we took that and placed it between 2 bricks and lighted it. Then took a earthen pot, some water and few rice grains in it and put it on the bricks so that the bottom of the pot was heated by the below single flamed lamp. And both of us were analyzing the rice grains when K’s mother caught us and gave us a sound scolding. Then she gave us shift-able chulhaa which used wood as the fire material. We did not get wood to burn, so we used paper from our old newspaper raddi and burnt them to make  khichdi & alu bhaja for the very first time. Then there was no looking back… We continued to have mane feasts on the terrace for many years till K got married. Now both of us are cooking… she for her family and I for myself. Ohh… did I tell that K has a 1 and 1/2 yrs old son now, who has got the very same mischievous eyes K has???

I never knew that, I was about to write such a long post that I would need another day and another post to continue. But Nostalgia cannot be nostalgia if it has not enough to write about… isn’t it??? ;)

August 11, 2009

One Of My Good Shots…

Filed under: Behind the screen..., Very strange!!, uuphh yeh life!!! — chapters @ 11:45 PM

Colors Dekho...

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Few days back, I had been to Kolkata’s Botanical Garden, with couple of friends. There when we got bored of clicking photos of each other, I found this very romantically colorful couple taking a stroll. So I took a snap with one of my friend’s camera. I did not check the pic then, but when I got this pic from my friend, I thought, What a pic man!!! I should be placing it in my blog.

I don’t know exactly why I like this snap… Obviously not because of the extra romantic couple… but may be due to the presence of so many colors. Just look at the girl, her hair, her dress, her bag, everything is so bright. And there is so much greenery all around. As a whole, every color fits really well into this photo. Till I come across anything else to write about… enjoy these colors :)

August 5, 2009

And Miles To Go Before I Sleep…

Filed under: Behind the screen..., craps ..., uuphh yeh life!!! — chapters @ 12:13 PM

Have you watched the new Titan wrist watch commercial, where Aamir khan runs on the sea shore, with his hands stretched out, along with the shadow of a flying aeroplane??? Be born everyday… he says… I loved those phrases… “Dusro ke galatiyon se kya sikhna? Make your own mistakes yaar!!!”… “Kabhi kisi anjaan station pe utar ke dekho.. kabhi kisi gumnaam seher ki ticket katao”. “Never resemble your passport photograph for more than 3 months. har subhe shock your expression”… “Bachpan me to kya kuch nahi banna chahte the… Why not today???”

I wish if I could follow those phrases, I could be born everyday, I could run like that. I wish if I could learn to play a guitar someday, I wish if I could learn to sing someday, I wish if I could learn to drive someday, I wish if I could have the guts to face the truth and make others face it too… I wish, if my wishes were horses…

I am growing old you know, age has already started showing its signs on me… a grey hair, couple of sore and decaying teeth, weak knee joints, poor eye sight are few of them. I am not worried about the age, not about the wrinkles even; what I fear is that, it might happen that I die before doing all those things I always dreamt of doing.

Each morning, when I wake up, the first question that pops up in my mind is “What am I gonna cook today???”. I mean, I am not complaining about cooking. I love cooking… kind of passion for me to try my hands at new recipes. But sometimes I think, are What-to-cook-and-what-to-eat questionss so vital? Do we live to eat??  Spending more than half of my day outside, the only thing that tortures me is that, at the end of the day I need to go back to my flat and need to cook. So I started cooking in the morning and saving the same thing for dinner. Some laugh on me, some make disgusting faces upon hearing this. The simple thing is I cannot afford a cook and even if I were able to afford still I would have continued to cook my own food. But sometimes, it becomes very irritating when people comment on what you eat.

Normally, I don’t tell my parents that I eat the extra food that I cooked in the morning. Rather I tell the that after coming back to my flat I cook rice and dal again for the dinner. But yesterday, I told them the truth. Then came the rantings… you have become lazy… blah blah blah… When I could not take it any more it automatically came out of my mouth that, I can not cook after working 10 to 12 hours in the office… Why eating is so important? If I am not complaning then why others are? I disconnected the call… sat in front of the TV and cried.

I wanted to do so many things. I am not obsessed with food, rather it is my requirement that I fullfill as and only when required. I eat when I feel like. Why should others tell me when and what I should eat and what I should not? If I eat vegetarian dishes, then it is my taste. Why should somebody come and tell me to eat meat/fish?

Cooking my own lunch/dinner was my decision. And I am sticking to it. But then, when I don’t feel like doing something, I don’t do it. I also want to do all those things I wish to do, only if I could manage my time little more efficiently! If I am saving few hours by not cooking and doing few other things that I enjoy, then where is the fault?

All I want to say is that, there are lot more than just cooking and eating. Every idle moment passing by is stealing something from my life that I could have learnt/explored. Say, I feel good when I blog about anything under the sun. But for that, I need to sit, and write and that demands time. For that I need to compensate with not doing some other thing.  Because, if my wish list increases, my life-time does not increase along with it. I will have to somehow manage with that limited period only.

I can go on and on with this ranting… But then, now, my office works demand my time and attention…  So I close this post with my favorite lines from Robert Frost’s creation…

“The woods are lovely, dark and deep,

But I have promises to keep,

And miles to go before I sleep,

And miles to go before I sleep…”

August 1, 2009

Yum Yum Yum…

Filed under: craps ..., uuphh yeh life!!! — chapters @ 10:55 PM

Food

I tried my hand at veg-fried rice today and came out so yummy!!!